Awww I totally understand that. I do some cruel things to Raphael in my fiction (in three 'verses he only has one wing via being ripped off Q.Q... I will never eat another chicken wing as long as I live!) Sometimes you just have to let it simmer in your mind for a bit and then one day you'll know just what to do! :3 You're a writer and an amazing one at that, I have no doubt you'll be able to weave your ideas together into something truly unique and amazing!